For the month of November, I’ve been recounting daily what I’m thankful for as my FB status. I wasn’t having much trouble the first 13 days. Yesterday, however, I was finding it hard to come up with something to post. I was in a bad, no-good, got-the-mean-reds kind of mood. I was tired, feeling taken advantage of for my efforts, and in general, just not ‘me’. My whining consisted of: “I feed and care for everyone else. When is someone going to feed and care for me for a change?” Wow. What a bitch!
Suffice it to say, I needed to go to my room and pronto! Waking this morning, I found a new perspective to yesterday’s ‘mean reds’. There’s no need to feel burned at both ends being the Mom Taxi. How many years before my job becomes obsolete once the kids learn to drive? Yeah, six short years. That’ll go by in a flash! Why feel emotionally drained because there’s laundry to do, dishes to wash, and dinner to make? Isn’t it good that the kids and I have clothes to wear and food to put on those dishes that caused the dishes to need washing? What about the ‘feeding and care’ commentary? Isn’t it a good thing that I am naturally a nurturing individual?! My kids get what they need, and my friends do as well. Shouldn’t the fact that I’m a source of fulfillment for others be a blessing to me?!
So, my November 15th Thankfulness is: PERSPECTIVE. I want the perspective to see the good in all that I have to do each day. I want to have the perspective to enjoy the tasks I take on because they are for the greater good. And I want the perspective to see that the ‘mean reds’ are no way to feel as I live my life. I am blessed beyond measure. By giving into those ‘mean reds’, I’m just bringing myself and others around me that have to listen to my whining down.
I am happy. I am blessed. I am thankful.
